Best Life!

Being single is not what I remembered. I remembered being lonely, unhappy, depressed and just a general mope. I had an on again, off again relationship for three years, that ended a few months ago.

Normally I don't post my personal business online, but there's nothing bad to say, so I don't think it really matters this time.

I finally feel free again. Free and happy. I loved being in a relationship, and having the companionship, intimacy, and love. I didn't love the arguments, and the jealousy.

Now that I'm single, I can spend endless amounts of time with my friends. I can travel to visit friends. I can kiss two different people in one week. I can go home with someone from the bar, not for sex, but for the hell of it. I don't have anyone to come home to. And for once, I'm loving it.

Instead of getting jealous while watching happy couples kiss and touch each other in front of me, I just smile. They're happy. Why not show it? I used to get all butthurt at the thought of seeing someone else be intimate with their loved one when I was alone. I thought of myself as the third wheel. Now I see myself as the center of it all.

I'm not seeking a relationship right now. But...but...if one finds me, then I won't hold back. I am not that sad, easy, mcslutty fat chick that this modern world is used to. I'm a large, confident, sexy woman. And I'll make you see it. I get it if I'm not your thing, and I appreciate your honesty. But don't let that stop us from being friends.

Having this realization, of pure happiness and love of myself, and my life, makes amazing things happen.

Story time.

This past weekend, I was hanging out with some friends, new and recent, and we were all sitting around in a backyard garden, at 4 in the morning. The weather was perfect, the night had gone great so far, and here we are, a small group of great people. I began to talk about how happy I felt. And then a small bit of worry popped in my head. I decided to push it away with a positive thought instead. I told the group that I was going to win the lottery that day. Instead of thinking about my money problem, I said screw it. I'm gonna get money. I'm GOING TO win the lottery. Today. I told them a few times, and that I'd let them know when it happened.

Later on that day, after saving one of them after they ran out of gas at 7am, and sleeping, I went out to win the lottery. I go to the gas station, pick my scratch off, pay the man, and get to scratchin. I won $10! I am a lottery winner!

I shared the news with everyone that day.

The levels of positivity coming out of me are just right to make good things happen.

I figure, if you can just say something is going to happen, then it will. Good or bad. Just believe in yourself, and be thankful for what you've got. And everything will be alright.

So the point of this, was to share my news, my happiness, my insight, my stories, and my love.